.that.moment.

You really are a bitch. Being lied to - directly to your face - it kinda sucks. Not telling the whole truth, especially when asked about it is still a lie. But so be it. In this moment of anger, I’ve found it in me to loathe you. I still can’t hate, but I sure as fuck am getting close. I don’t think I was naïve, I don’t think I was blind, my gut told me all I know now, but this time I chose to listen to my heart. Listened to what I wanted to believe, and look at me now. Sitting here shaking my head in disbelief. And now I’m the one that’s been made to look like a fool? I only ask of one thing from my friends - honesty. That's it. Be. Fucking. Honest. I don't think that is asking for too much is it?

Oh no hunny - I don't play that game. Two words for you right now. Let it be known that I've put careful thought into choosing them too. FUCK YOU.

I’m done. I’m so done dude. I’m done being vulnerable, I’m done opening myself up to people. I was so much better when I let my heart turn to ice. When I was numb and emotionless. This shit never happened. 

I'm not even fucking emotional right now, I'm pissed. If I hadn't already put in a ton of tiny holes into my wall trying to put shit up on the walls and make this place look lived in, I would picture your face right there and put my fist through it. 

Blown away. Funny, that's the song that's been stuck in my head all damn day. I sure as hell hope that tomorrow's song is different. 'Fuck You' by Celo Green? No...let's not do that, I definitely would put a hole in the wall from having that song stuck in my head. 

That moment when you realize that everything that you've been told by someone you consider a best friend was a fucking lie. Everything.

That moment.