Open up

I can’t help but feel that there is something wrong...
I did something wrong…
You found something wrong with me
And you won’t tell me what it is.
I can’t help but feel that I am opening up
And pouring my heart out to you
Over and over again..
But I feel like you just don’t care.
And I don’t know what to do about it.
I can’t blame it on my worrying anymore.
I only worry because you won’t tell me anything.
I worry because I know there is something going on
I worry because I let my mind wander and ponder
I worry because I feel left in the dark.

Why is this so hard?
Why is it so hard for you to talk to me?
I just wish you would be open
Say what’s on your mind
Say what’s in your heart
Even if I can’t help you with it
I just want to know that you value my being here for you

I don’t know how else to ask anymore
I don know how many more nights I can toss and turn
Trying to put my mind to rest.

Ironically,
I have this cut on my finger
And every time it is about to heal
I pick at it
I pick at it until it starts hurting again
I pick at it until a little droplet of blood oozes through again
I pick and pick
Till I can feel again.
My finger is oozing again right now

I’m hurt…
It’s time for you to stop only caring for others
Its time for you to open up and let other care for you
Please

Why is the grass always greener in someone else’s yard…