I had a dream last night. I can’t see your face but the images of you have been running through my head over and over again. I can’t stop thinking and trying to figure out who you are…I just want to see your face. In my heart, I feel like I know you. Your touch to my body was new. But the softness of your hands, they were familiar. Intertwined in my fingers, I felt so safe, comfortable and secure. Your kiss…your lips, I couldn’t tell, but they taste sweet. Mixed berry…fruity…it was not just your lip-gloss. Your hair smelt like strawberries, or maybe it was raspberries…who knew you could smell or taste in a dream? I didn’t…at least not until last night. You’ve got my heart out of control…skipping beats and what not…I’m searching for the one in my dream…literally.
In life everybody has labels. People like to put labels on others…it makes them easy to identify in a crowded room. That one in the corner is labeled as the weirdo…what we don’t know about her s that she is on anti depressants…tried to kill herself twice already. The one in the back there is the popular jock…her label doesn’t tell us that her life is falling apart...the smile on her face is just the mask she puts on everyday. Brunette there…well she is the most beautiful person in the room, but everyone just walks past her…she is the labeled as the loner…her label doesn’t include the subtitles of amazing artist, loveable caring and friendly. What is my label you might want to know…there are far too many. But I’m sure…whatever you are thinking right now is probably written right on one of the labels. Whatever you have thought for so long, but you don’t want to believe to be true is probably another label.
.black.young.loner.artist.jock.popular.lost.weak.happy.sad.scared.weirdo.romantic.lover.scarred.depressed.energetic.witty.sarcastic.strong.certain.blind.wanted.amazing.evil.liar.friend.bi.green.old.found.goddess.peaceful.abnormal.punk.quiet.loud.counfused.wild.ambitious.sorry...must I go on? I have finally come to accept the label I was meant to have. It’s not just one, but it’s a combination. I fit in every corner of the room.
I’m looking for certainty in my life, what might happen in the future. I don’t want to go into the uncertain waters. I want to know what will happen. I want to be prepared. Life is full of regrets, but no matter how hard you try you can’t change the past.
I feel like I’m walking down the right road the wrong way.
2 comments:
Keep being positive - the one thing you are searching for will appear before your eyes, just like someone one said "From the withered tree, a flower blooms". - Don't give up :)
:) thank you...im glad someone has faith in me. :)
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