Self Medicating.

I've been self medicating.
Hardcore.
I knew I had been, but it took this long for it to finally click.
Took this long for me to realize the damage I've been doing.
I'm sorry.
Not only to myself, not only to my body, but to you.
I'm sorry.
July 11th is my date.
My date to start afresh.
Officially.
But unofficially I am starting today.
I'm sorry.
Thats all I can say, I have no other words,
I have no other way to go back in time and change what I've done.
Other than sincerely saying sorry.
And promising that things will change.
Promising that I will change.

I cant do it on my own, I know i cant, I've tried.
I will take the proper steps I need to take.
I promise.
I will.

I'm sorry...
I'm so sorry.