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I think I need more positivity to my blogs.

I think I need to start talking more about the things that make me smile. More about the things that make me go to bed wanting to get up and make the next day a better one. Life is too short to remember the times I am anything but happy. So along with all the new beginnings in my life, I am going to look at this as a new beginning to my blogging.

There will be sad entries. There will be depressing entries because that is what I do when I get sad and depressed. I write it out. Well, I paint or I write, lately its been writing but the painting is bound to get started up again soon. If I can help it, I want fewer of those. So here’s to that. To me starting today, November 12th 2009, to be more positive in every which way I can try to be.

In less than 24 hours I will start cutting my dreads that I have been growing for the past 5 year off. I am finally doing it after months of talking about it, after months of pushing the date from April…to June, to September to before Halloween, to after Halloween…fuck. If I am going to start fresh in different aspects of my life - living in a new place and hopefully landing a new job soon, new beginnings and new chapters to an amazing relationship, finding new friends, finding new hobbies, the start of a new season, new adventures, and new attitude - I will walk into it all with a new fresh look. I’m going to see how much I can undo. From the 3 or 4 that I have taken out in the back, it looks like its going to be really short – saying I can get an inch might be pushing it, but I think I can pull it off…as do the majority of people I have asked. Stay posted for pictures….ooh that’s another thing; I want to add more pictures to my blog.

So to end this entry out I will post a picture of one of the things that has kept me going this past year. Pulled me out of my depression spells, and let me know that no matter what things will happen for a reason and I have no control over most of them happening, but I can control the way I deal with them. That no matter what everything will work out one way or another. That no matter what it will be okay.

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