words

this might be the first entry i make without writing it out first.
just me getting my thoughts out. hmmm. we'll see how much i like it.
i dont know what it is but something is going on with my body.
not only can i not manage no matter how hard i try, to get a solid 8 hours of sleep, but my stomach has been all funky, and i've been getting migrains. once in a while i wouldnt wonder about it...but not all of this in less than a week. it needs to stop.

i need to start doing the shit i love doing. the stuff i havent done in a while. pretty much painting. i miss it. i miss starting out with a blank canvas and pouring my emotions and thoughts into it. i miss it. it would be a lot better to do that than to say...punch walls. my hand is still pretty messed up. ugh.