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So I was thinking…I need to write…
I don’t know what about though…I haven’t actually sat down and typed out anything, but then again, why do I have this feeling at 9:30am, as I am sitting at my desk. Idling my thumbs as though I have nothing in the world to do. Papers are starting to pile up around me.

*Sigh*

My life seems to be taking a turn for the complicated chaos that this blog is named after.

I have decided to cut certain lose ended friends out of my life. Two in particular, but I know that will grow in number. My thoughts however on the subject is why ‘pretend’ to be friends when we both know you are just cutting me out of your life. I guess it is time I stop being optimistic and just plain out grow up. I don’t need petty drama in my life; I have people in my life right now that I want in my life. I don’t need people who choose to come in and out as they please. With that said…its time for me to start being a bit selfish and think about myself now. And if I hurt your feelings I am sorry but maybe when I tried to stay in touch with you, keep in contact you shouldn’t have just blatantly chosen not to respond. Ooh well. I am happy with my decision.

Another thing I need to do is write my coming out letter…I need to do that before the end of the week. I just NEED to. Maybe I will go do that now….since I am sure it will probably take me all week to make sure I have it written out right.

Oof, I miss being a kid. No worries. Stress free.
Responsibility is a bitch.
So is dating/wanting to date/finding a date…………

I cant wait for Chicago!!