Possibilities….

Self esteem can be so exhausting…I don’t have the answers to why I feel this way. Why I just want to run away to some isolate place…sit under a waterfall all by myself and cry. For some reason I feel that would be so...fulfilling. I don’t know why sometimes I look at the scars on my wrists and think to myself….as dark as those times were…there was a strange comfort about them.

Last night I couldn’t sleep because my pillow was so wet. I thought I couldn’t cry anymore. But now I feel like I can’t stop crying. And the worst part is…I don’t know why. Why, why, why?!!?!? Someone give me the answers.

I’ve spent another day sitting around doing nothing….another day feeling invisible and just not wanting to be bothered. Why? I honestly don’t know…I wish I had the answers so I could snap out of it. Sometimes I scare myself with my thoughts, but yet, it seems like it’s the only comfort I can get sometimes.

I don’t know what to do….I don’t think my eyes can handle any more crying...crying over everything that is nothing at all. I don’t think I can handle this anymore…

I just want it to end.